Monday, July 31, 2006
Food, Drinks, and Dancing
Went to Mexican Cafe with The Boy, Uncle Long a.k.a Loanshark, and Ah Lim (Peh)*laughs* yesterday night. Uncle Adnan didn't join us 'cos of his food allergies (I think!). Never mind la, he can join us next time, and treat us dinner! Hehe.. We had a jug of Peach Margarita, which was yummy and I wished I had more, but for some absurd reason, everyone thinks I'm an alcoholic. As if! I ordered beef tacos, which were kinda like giant corn chips with fillings. Colin ordered a Chimichangas, which I can remember only because of the funky name. Haha! Chimichangas chimichangas chimichangas! Lol..
After dinner, we decided to go to this bubble tea place called Hulu Cat. Jackie followed Colin to his car near Kathmandu, while I followed John to his car by uni. Walking was just torture. I had decided, very ridiculously, to wear my sister's pink pointy shoes. They are very nice to look at, but let me tell you, they are murderers of feet! Every step was a heel-grinding nightmare. I can take the pain of toe-crushing, but not heel-grinding. I really felt as if my feet were dying, if that's even remotely possible. So poor John sprinted across Albert Park and drove the car down to where I was waiting. This makes me sound oh-so-feeble, and rather like a spoilt brat... but my feet hurt so much that just taking a few steps was torture. Hulu Cat is a pretty cool place, with couches! According to Jackie, there's quite some cute guys working there, but I think the guys are just so-so. Oh well. I have The Boy, so that's enough. XD The Taro Pudding Milk Tea is delicious! And so is Caramel Milk Tea, but that's too sweet for my liking. I wanna have more Taro Pudding Milk Tea!! We played cards and had a question game going on. Sort of like a Truth or Dare game, but without the 'dare' option. We had some pretty odd and some pretty hilarious questions, and some pretty bold ones too. I think it'd be more fun if we did it during a sleepover..
UMSA ball is in late August, and this time, I think I'm gonna go. Less than a month to shop for something to wear... Geez, so troublesome. I like the idea of dressing up, but not really the idea of shopping for the clothes. Too much time and effort, not to mention $$$, which I really can't afford to spare, with uni and studying and all. Hmm, maybe I can get the folks to sponsor my ticket. Hehehe!
First Argentine Tango lesson tomorrow! Should be fun! Yes, I signed up for tango lessons. Hard to believe, eh? Me who's always so paiseh, going to an actual dance lesson with random strangers. Well, not totally random, since The Boy signed up too. Wonder how the class will go.. who knows, maybe The Boy will show some natural talent! I also signed up for yoga lessons with Jackie. Good for relieving stress, which is what both Ah Lim and I need. Plus, can learn to be more flexible. I miss my flexibility from the good 'ole ballet days. It's good for freaking people out. :D
After dinner, we decided to go to this bubble tea place called Hulu Cat. Jackie followed Colin to his car near Kathmandu, while I followed John to his car by uni. Walking was just torture. I had decided, very ridiculously, to wear my sister's pink pointy shoes. They are very nice to look at, but let me tell you, they are murderers of feet! Every step was a heel-grinding nightmare. I can take the pain of toe-crushing, but not heel-grinding. I really felt as if my feet were dying, if that's even remotely possible. So poor John sprinted across Albert Park and drove the car down to where I was waiting. This makes me sound oh-so-feeble, and rather like a spoilt brat... but my feet hurt so much that just taking a few steps was torture. Hulu Cat is a pretty cool place, with couches! According to Jackie, there's quite some cute guys working there, but I think the guys are just so-so. Oh well. I have The Boy, so that's enough. XD The Taro Pudding Milk Tea is delicious! And so is Caramel Milk Tea, but that's too sweet for my liking. I wanna have more Taro Pudding Milk Tea!! We played cards and had a question game going on. Sort of like a Truth or Dare game, but without the 'dare' option. We had some pretty odd and some pretty hilarious questions, and some pretty bold ones too. I think it'd be more fun if we did it during a sleepover..
UMSA ball is in late August, and this time, I think I'm gonna go. Less than a month to shop for something to wear... Geez, so troublesome. I like the idea of dressing up, but not really the idea of shopping for the clothes. Too much time and effort, not to mention $$$, which I really can't afford to spare, with uni and studying and all. Hmm, maybe I can get the folks to sponsor my ticket. Hehehe!
First Argentine Tango lesson tomorrow! Should be fun! Yes, I signed up for tango lessons. Hard to believe, eh? Me who's always so paiseh, going to an actual dance lesson with random strangers. Well, not totally random, since The Boy signed up too. Wonder how the class will go.. who knows, maybe The Boy will show some natural talent! I also signed up for yoga lessons with Jackie. Good for relieving stress, which is what both Ah Lim and I need. Plus, can learn to be more flexible. I miss my flexibility from the good 'ole ballet days. It's good for freaking people out. :D
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:58 PM
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Sunday, July 30, 2006
(No title, but mushy post ahead!)
It's funny how your mood can change so drastically within moments. Then something would happen, changing how you were originally feeling. There was one particular weekend, where I just felt absolutely pissy and bitchy. But after spending some time with the boy, I felt so much better, almost like I could forget all the things that were causing me mad in the first place.
It's the person you're with that makes a difference, I should think. And the environment too, that plays a huge part as well.
But I think mainly it's the company. Thank you for always being there for me, JJSS. Me adore you lots! :)
It's the person you're with that makes a difference, I should think. And the environment too, that plays a huge part as well.
But I think mainly it's the company. Thank you for always being there for me, JJSS. Me adore you lots! :)
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:45 AM
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Saturday, July 29, 2006
My Journey Through Auckland International Film Festival '06
When I first heard of the Auckland International Film Festival this year, I immediately leafed through the booklet, bookmarked the films I was remotely interested in, narrowed it down again and again until I finally had 4 choices: Water, Twelve and Holding, Keane, and Three Times.
Water was amazing... It was the type of movie that actually made you stop and think about the oppression of women. Not only back then in 1938, not only in colonial India, but in every time and place. Shot in stunning simplicity, it moved the audience to tears... yet there was a sense of tragic beauty and painful triumph as well.
Twelve and Holding was another fantastic film. It sent shivers down my spine, and shocked me to the core with its gripping plotline. It was sad, funny, sweet, tragic and much, much more. The idea of what happens when children are forced to grow up too quickly is so eerily possible and believable... it just blows you away. I love Leonard's determination, Malee's courage and scared by Jacob's hatred. It not only shows you how capable and strong children can be, but also how their lives can be affected by a simple phrase by an adult.
Keane was a very bitter disappointment. I left the cinema feeling confused and awfully unsatisfied. The blurb on the booklet sounded so interesting that everyone was fooled. Sure shows you the art of deception, doesn't it? The film was much too mundane, and I know that's probably to show the dullness of the title character, Keane's life... but I almost fell asleep! I do like the little girl in the movie, though. Abigail Breslin, I think the young actress's name was. I reckon she has the best acting in the whole film. Keane was just too alienating that I can't relate to him or sympathise him at all. So basically, what I'm saying is this movie sucked!
Three Times was the last and most recent film I watched for the film fest. It started rather slowly at first, speeding up as it progressed through the 3 different time periods in the movie: 1966, 1911 and 2005. I really like the first one, 'A Time For Love'. Probably my favourite amongst the 3 separate parts of the film, it was so amazingly sweet, it made me smiled. 'A Time For Freedom' was rather sad, and it left me aching. The last, 'A Time For Youth' was so fast-paced, it really epitomised the modern life of young people in the 21st Century. It was filled with sex, angst, grief, pain and intensity... so much so that I felt overwhelmed as I left the cinema. Each of the 3 parts, as I predicted, had parallels. People from different circumstances in life, falling in love, their lives changed by the presence of a letter (or in the case of 'A Time For Youth', a typed letter on the computer). I thought the 3 parts would be quite the same, with the characters living happily ever after, if you will, at the end.. only in different time periods. I was pleasantly surprised to find that the 3 parts were not carbon copies of one another. Instead, I found myself enjoying the movie, although there were some rather tragic and shocking scenes.
All in all, the International Film Fest was a great experience! I can't wait till next year! :D
Water was amazing... It was the type of movie that actually made you stop and think about the oppression of women. Not only back then in 1938, not only in colonial India, but in every time and place. Shot in stunning simplicity, it moved the audience to tears... yet there was a sense of tragic beauty and painful triumph as well.
Twelve and Holding was another fantastic film. It sent shivers down my spine, and shocked me to the core with its gripping plotline. It was sad, funny, sweet, tragic and much, much more. The idea of what happens when children are forced to grow up too quickly is so eerily possible and believable... it just blows you away. I love Leonard's determination, Malee's courage and scared by Jacob's hatred. It not only shows you how capable and strong children can be, but also how their lives can be affected by a simple phrase by an adult.
Keane was a very bitter disappointment. I left the cinema feeling confused and awfully unsatisfied. The blurb on the booklet sounded so interesting that everyone was fooled. Sure shows you the art of deception, doesn't it? The film was much too mundane, and I know that's probably to show the dullness of the title character, Keane's life... but I almost fell asleep! I do like the little girl in the movie, though. Abigail Breslin, I think the young actress's name was. I reckon she has the best acting in the whole film. Keane was just too alienating that I can't relate to him or sympathise him at all. So basically, what I'm saying is this movie sucked!
Three Times was the last and most recent film I watched for the film fest. It started rather slowly at first, speeding up as it progressed through the 3 different time periods in the movie: 1966, 1911 and 2005. I really like the first one, 'A Time For Love'. Probably my favourite amongst the 3 separate parts of the film, it was so amazingly sweet, it made me smiled. 'A Time For Freedom' was rather sad, and it left me aching. The last, 'A Time For Youth' was so fast-paced, it really epitomised the modern life of young people in the 21st Century. It was filled with sex, angst, grief, pain and intensity... so much so that I felt overwhelmed as I left the cinema. Each of the 3 parts, as I predicted, had parallels. People from different circumstances in life, falling in love, their lives changed by the presence of a letter (or in the case of 'A Time For Youth', a typed letter on the computer). I thought the 3 parts would be quite the same, with the characters living happily ever after, if you will, at the end.. only in different time periods. I was pleasantly surprised to find that the 3 parts were not carbon copies of one another. Instead, I found myself enjoying the movie, although there were some rather tragic and shocking scenes.
All in all, the International Film Fest was a great experience! I can't wait till next year! :D
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:28 PM
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Monday, July 17, 2006
Back To Uni
Today's the first day back to uni. It's been so long (actually not that long la) since I've been in uni that I find myself at quite a loss at times. I've forgotten that on the first few days of the semester, the campus is always filled with people. Must be all the eager freshmen waiting to start their very first class in a university! Hehe, I remembered being like that once a long, long time ago. Alas, I am no longer a naive little freshman. How sad.. Oh well, by the end of the week, the amount of students will dwindle down.
Only had two classes today - Psychology at 1pm, and Comparative Literature at 2pm. As I predicted and hoped for, Comparative Literature looks to be a very interesting paper. The lecturer, Mike, remembers me! Yay! *perasan moment* It's a small class, only about 24 students, which is both good and bad. The good thing is you actually get to know the people in class. The bad thing is you'll definitely be required to participate in class. *dread dread dread* I really don't do so well in public situations.
Jackie and I decided to dress formally today, but this Jackie just dressed like she normally does. What la! According to Jackie, she must dress formally everyday then. That girl ah.. At least I dressed semi-formally, and even Colin ditched his usual ah pek look. Aiya, just realized I forgot to demand souvenirs from that uncle.. Must gently remind him tomorrow, hehe.
Only had two classes today - Psychology at 1pm, and Comparative Literature at 2pm. As I predicted and hoped for, Comparative Literature looks to be a very interesting paper. The lecturer, Mike, remembers me! Yay! *perasan moment* It's a small class, only about 24 students, which is both good and bad. The good thing is you actually get to know the people in class. The bad thing is you'll definitely be required to participate in class. *dread dread dread* I really don't do so well in public situations.
Jackie and I decided to dress formally today, but this Jackie just dressed like she normally does. What la! According to Jackie, she must dress formally everyday then. That girl ah.. At least I dressed semi-formally, and even Colin ditched his usual ah pek look. Aiya, just realized I forgot to demand souvenirs from that uncle.. Must gently remind him tomorrow, hehe.
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:00 PM
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Sunday, July 16, 2006
Water (Film)
The Telecom's 38th Auckland International Film Festival began on Thursday, July 13.
Just last night, Jackie and I went to watch a film, Water at the Civic Theatre. Directed by Deepa Mehta, it follows Earth and Fire, and is the third of the elemental trilogy.
Synopsis (taken from http://water.mahiram.com)
Set in 1938 Colonial India, against Mahatma Gandhi's rise to power, the story begins when eight-year-old Chuyia is widowed and sent to a home where Hindu widows must live in penitence. Chuyia's feisty presence affects the lives of the other residents, including a young widow, who falls for a Gandhian idealist.
About The Characters (taken from http://water.mahiram.com)
Chuyia is an eight-year-old girl with bright, sparkling eyes and a long, untidy braid that falls well below her waist. Her tiny wrists have two red bangles each and silver anklets encircle her bony ankles. Her family recently married her to a successful older man of their village with the prospect that when she came of age she would move to his home and become a proper wife. This plan is quickly thrown into disarray when the husband becomes ill and dies, leaving Chuyia a widow. Tradition dictates that Chuyia be forced to move into a house for Hindu widows to spend the rest of her life in renunciation. As a widow, she is expected to atone for the past sins that resulted in the death of her husband.
Madhumati, a widow in her mid-70s, is the house matriarch. By day she sits in the courtyard ordering instructions to the other widows, while at night she lies in her room, smoking ganja and listening to the latest gossip from her only friend, Gulabi, a eunuch and pimp.
Shakuntala is one of the 14 widows sharing the household into which Chuyia is forced to move. Perhaps the most enigmatic of the widows, she is good-looking enough, intelligent and educated. Quiet and reserved, Shakuntala is caught between the hopelessness of living out her remaining years as a widow and her devout adherence to the dictates of the Hindu scriptures.
Kalyani is breathtaking, and the only widow whose hair is not shorn, as a nod to her profession which was forced upon her at an early age by the powerful head widow Madhumati. Uncomplicated and gentle, she radiates a child-like innocence. Kalyani spends her day either playing with her puppy Kaalu, or talking to the small statue of the God Krishna she has in her room. Her nights though are surreal. Gulabi ferries her across the waters to the mansions of the rich gentry in Rawalpur. This she accepts with a quiet equanimity; it's her karma. Besides, she feels that perhaps this is a test that the God Krishna is putting her through and as the holy books dictate "she should live as the beautiful lotus flower untouched by the dirty water in which it resides." The rest of the widows ostracize her as they feel that close contact will result in a sullying of their purity. When she meets Narayan, the spiritual acceptance of her fate begins to disassemble and she becomes resistant to Madhumati's will.
Narayan, who has just finished his law degree, is an idealist and follower of Gandhi's 'Quit India Movement.' Through pure chance Narayan meets Kalyani. There is an immediate attraction, but the restriction placed on interaction with widows makes it difficult to find a way of pursuing any kind of relationship. Gandhi's movement is not solely dedicated to removing the British from Indian soil but also focuses on social justice particularly as it relates to the treatment of women. Narayan ignores the cultural taboos and continues to meet Kalyani in order to marry her. But marriage to widows is strictly forbidden.
The film basically revolves around the lives of the women in the ashram, where Hindu widows are sent to live in penitence. Chuyia is the newcomer, who keeps insisting she will go home soon. She gradually accepts her fate, yet at the same time, still harbours hope. Kalyani is the outcast in the house, who becomes Chuyia's friend, and gives Chuyia hope of freedom. She falls in love with Narayan, the young idealist who stands unwavering in his beliefs of what is right. Shakuntala, who seems strict at times, yet friendly at others, dreams of liberation amidst conflicted feelings between conscience and faith. Madhumati is the matriarch of the house, who manipulates Kalyani, and eventually, Chuyia, with false hopes. There is also Auntie, the withering widow who dreams of sweets, never failing to recount the various treats she loves. (Widows aren't allowed fried food apparently because it's perceived to be a sin.)
It is a moving story about love, liberation and hope. Both a drama and a romance, the movie got both Jackie and I scrambling for tissues by the end, and we could hear people sniffing in the huge theater auditorium. It ended tragically, yet is filled with hope. This is definitely a film worth watching.
The next film Jackie and I will be watching is Twelve and Holding this Friday at 1.45pm. Will be looking forward to it!
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:21 PM
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Friday, July 14, 2006
Goodbye, Holidays
The semester break is coming to an end soon. Just a few more days, and it's back to uni again. I can just see it... an endless routine of lectures, tutorials and whatnot.
The good thing is, I'll get to see my friends more often.
The bad thing is, we'll probably be too busy to do anything fun.
The worse thing is, the previous semester may have ended.. but the conflicts have not.
Whee.
The other good thing is, I won't be doing any English papers this coming semester. I did so horrendously in the first semester that I feel quite dishearted at the thought of facing another English paper.
The better thing is, I'll be doing a Comparative Literature paper about folktales, which seems quite interesting.
So.. what have I been doing in the past three weeks? I sorta had a list.. but I totally forgot about it. How typical of me, eh?
Here, I shall attempt to recount the things I did during the holidays... (Not in chronological order, seeing as how my brain's wires are all jumbled up.)
There was that shopping trip I had with Jackie, in which my bank account screams bloody murder. I remembered calling her the night before. She was so tired from working that I could hear the fatigue in her voice. She had a very unenthusiastic sounding "yay" when I reassured her we would go shopping. It was fun, but I swore to myself I wouldn't shop anymore for the next few months anyway... but broke that promise just a few days ago. Sob! I have no self-control..
Then, there was Simon's birthday dinner... when I accidentally stirred up some trouble. I have to admit... I wasn't being the brightest bulb in the bunch, but honestly! Don't just assume I know stuff, because I'm a very clueless person at times. And I'm dreadfully forgetful, so it's hard for me to remember so many things, especially things as stupid as that. Geez. At least the food wasn't half bad.
Secondly, I went to the Art Gallery for the Art & the 60's Exhibition.
Went to have yum cha with Jackie, Adrian and Edwin. Finally, yum cha! Didn't have plates of egg tarts like we usually do, though. There weren't any when we asked. Hmm, wonder if it's to do with the fact that Colin's not around, and that it's Colin who's obsessed with egg tarts? Lol! After that, we went to the new shopping mall, Sylvia Park, which was so darn boring that we left within 30 minutes. Watched Ju-on with Jackie and Adrian in Jackie's place... Is it freaky that both Jackie and I think Toshio is absolutely adorable? Hehe. I don't quite get the ending, though. Does it just mean it will never, ever end? That it just gets reborn? *confused* Or maybe I just have to watch the sequels...
I went to watch Pirates of the Caribbean with John, who had a day off from work... which is not so much 'lucky' for me than it being well-planned, seeing as how I almost have to make an appointment in advance. Bleh. The movie was fantastic, although I wish it had a better ending. Not gonna say what it is, in case anyone hasn't watched it. Watch out for characters from the first movie! And also for the Cantonese speaking pirate! Haha..
Just went ice skating on Wednesday night. It was a night of to- and fro-ing. Jackie and Adrian came to my place first to pick me and John for dinner. After dinner, Jackie suggested ice skating, so we went back to my place to find out the skating rink's session times and location. Ice skating was painful but fun. At least this time I ventured across the middle of the rink, rather than staying at the edges pitifully like the previous time. I fell down a grand total of 5 times, and have a tiny bruise on my right palm to show for it. Then, we decided to go Momo's, but I wanted to have a change of clothes after sweating while ice skating (yes, I put that much energy into ice skating), so we went back to my place again. We arrived at Momo's, which was darn busy for a Wednesday night, so we went to Easyway instead. Easyway has disgusting Strawberry Milk Tea... I still prefer Momo's. They do have yummy taro and chocolate pudding, which I enjoyed but Jackie hated. Chocolate makes me smile, hehe! After that, Adrian had to drop me home... So, Adrian drove up the narrow driveway leading to my house a total of 4 times in one night!
Hmm... anything else? That's it, I suppose. I spent the past few days downloading the anime, Ouran High School Host Club, which is so darn hilarious that I'm hooked onto it! (Damn.. so not a good time to get addicted to anything.. Uni starts soon!) I really like Honey with his bunny, Bun-Bun. "Haru-chan! Haru-chan!" So cuuuuute. And Mori, who at the few occasions when he does speak, mostly mutters one- or two-syllable words. So far, I've downloaded 11 episodes of the anime. Would have downloaded more... but we're subscribed to a 5 GB plan, which I'm about to exceed. So would have to wait till Sunday before I can download more. Whee!!
So, that's a 'summary' of what I did this holiday. Hope everyone had a great time, and for you people who are still having holidays while I start uni, I have one thing to say: "Damn you, you lucky person!"
The good thing is, I'll get to see my friends more often.
The bad thing is, we'll probably be too busy to do anything fun.
The worse thing is, the previous semester may have ended.. but the conflicts have not.
Whee.
The other good thing is, I won't be doing any English papers this coming semester. I did so horrendously in the first semester that I feel quite dishearted at the thought of facing another English paper.
The better thing is, I'll be doing a Comparative Literature paper about folktales, which seems quite interesting.
So.. what have I been doing in the past three weeks? I sorta had a list.. but I totally forgot about it. How typical of me, eh?
Here, I shall attempt to recount the things I did during the holidays... (Not in chronological order, seeing as how my brain's wires are all jumbled up.)
There was that shopping trip I had with Jackie, in which my bank account screams bloody murder. I remembered calling her the night before. She was so tired from working that I could hear the fatigue in her voice. She had a very unenthusiastic sounding "yay" when I reassured her we would go shopping. It was fun, but I swore to myself I wouldn't shop anymore for the next few months anyway... but broke that promise just a few days ago. Sob! I have no self-control..
Then, there was Simon's birthday dinner... when I accidentally stirred up some trouble. I have to admit... I wasn't being the brightest bulb in the bunch, but honestly! Don't just assume I know stuff, because I'm a very clueless person at times. And I'm dreadfully forgetful, so it's hard for me to remember so many things, especially things as stupid as that. Geez. At least the food wasn't half bad.
Secondly, I went to the Art Gallery for the Art & the 60's Exhibition.
Went to have yum cha with Jackie, Adrian and Edwin. Finally, yum cha! Didn't have plates of egg tarts like we usually do, though. There weren't any when we asked. Hmm, wonder if it's to do with the fact that Colin's not around, and that it's Colin who's obsessed with egg tarts? Lol! After that, we went to the new shopping mall, Sylvia Park, which was so darn boring that we left within 30 minutes. Watched Ju-on with Jackie and Adrian in Jackie's place... Is it freaky that both Jackie and I think Toshio is absolutely adorable? Hehe. I don't quite get the ending, though. Does it just mean it will never, ever end? That it just gets reborn? *confused* Or maybe I just have to watch the sequels...
I went to watch Pirates of the Caribbean with John, who had a day off from work... which is not so much 'lucky' for me than it being well-planned, seeing as how I almost have to make an appointment in advance. Bleh. The movie was fantastic, although I wish it had a better ending. Not gonna say what it is, in case anyone hasn't watched it. Watch out for characters from the first movie! And also for the Cantonese speaking pirate! Haha..
Just went ice skating on Wednesday night. It was a night of to- and fro-ing. Jackie and Adrian came to my place first to pick me and John for dinner. After dinner, Jackie suggested ice skating, so we went back to my place to find out the skating rink's session times and location. Ice skating was painful but fun. At least this time I ventured across the middle of the rink, rather than staying at the edges pitifully like the previous time. I fell down a grand total of 5 times, and have a tiny bruise on my right palm to show for it. Then, we decided to go Momo's, but I wanted to have a change of clothes after sweating while ice skating (yes, I put that much energy into ice skating), so we went back to my place again. We arrived at Momo's, which was darn busy for a Wednesday night, so we went to Easyway instead. Easyway has disgusting Strawberry Milk Tea... I still prefer Momo's. They do have yummy taro and chocolate pudding, which I enjoyed but Jackie hated. Chocolate makes me smile, hehe! After that, Adrian had to drop me home... So, Adrian drove up the narrow driveway leading to my house a total of 4 times in one night!
Hmm... anything else? That's it, I suppose. I spent the past few days downloading the anime, Ouran High School Host Club, which is so darn hilarious that I'm hooked onto it! (Damn.. so not a good time to get addicted to anything.. Uni starts soon!) I really like Honey with his bunny, Bun-Bun. "Haru-chan! Haru-chan!" So cuuuuute. And Mori, who at the few occasions when he does speak, mostly mutters one- or two-syllable words. So far, I've downloaded 11 episodes of the anime. Would have downloaded more... but we're subscribed to a 5 GB plan, which I'm about to exceed. So would have to wait till Sunday before I can download more. Whee!!
So, that's a 'summary' of what I did this holiday. Hope everyone had a great time, and for you people who are still having holidays while I start uni, I have one thing to say: "Damn you, you lucky person!"
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:53 AM
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Thursday, July 06, 2006
I'm A Hypocrite
I'm a hypocrite. I'm harsh to a degree, yet I complain when others are harsh towards me.
I don't know why it bugs me so much. Perhaps I thought I've pegged some people down correctly, and I don't like to be wrong.
Or maybe I thought that because I think a certain way, so do the people around me.
I thought I have an open mind, but in reality, it is so very, very limited. I am such a hypocrite, it's disgusting.
I don't know why it bugs me so much. Perhaps I thought I've pegged some people down correctly, and I don't like to be wrong.
Or maybe I thought that because I think a certain way, so do the people around me.
I thought I have an open mind, but in reality, it is so very, very limited. I am such a hypocrite, it's disgusting.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:43 PM
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Real Women Have Real Curves?
Have you seen that Dove campaign: Campaign For Real Beauty? You know, the one where for once, curvy women are shown instead of stick-thin models?According to Dove's Campaign For Real Beauty website, "Dove's global Campaign for Real Beauty aims to change the status quo and offer in its place a broader, healthier, more democratic view of beauty. A view of beauty that all women can own and enjoy everyday." A great message to all women out there, isn't it? If you go to the website, you'll find more information about the campaign. You can vote what you think about beauty: for example, is someone with freckles flawed or flawless? You can view chat transcripts with real beauty experts, watch Dove's advertisements for the campaign, read global studies or reports about beauty.
Yet, I can't help but feel there's something wrong with it... The ad that boasts "Real Women Have Real Curves" is an ad for a skin firming lotion. Doesn't that kinda contradicts the ad's tagline? Oh yes, real women have real curves, and they're beautiful just the way they are, but it sure wouldn't hurt if they had firmer skin. I mean, how does that work exactly? And let's face it, these women we see on the ads and bilboards... they're pretty. None of them are plain. Does that tell you something?
I admit it's a good campaign that gives a good message. Heck, even I felt more positive seeing those ads. In fact, it makes me wanna go buy Dove's products! Hmm. Wait a minute. Dove is a company, a company that seeks to make profits.
It just feels like smart companies like Dove have pinned onto the fact that most women feel insecure about their appearance, rather than present a genuine campaign for real beauty. Perhaps Dove is sincere... I don't know. I can't help feel like we're being preyed on, like our weaknesses are being manipulated.
Let's be realistic. The world isn't perfect, and it sure isn't fair. People who are perceived to be more "beautiful" are more accepted than the rest of us. It simply works that way. But hey, I'm not saying we can't fight back. I'm just saying that a company for beauty products hardly seems to be the right agent for a real beauty campaign.
i know that i have loved you ... at 5:27 PM
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(Story) Adam (edited)
edit: I attended a meeting with my fellow 'writers' on Sunday, 9th July and read this story to them. Decided to change it a 'lil bit. Just add in a sentence, took out a paragraph, and a couple of words.
His jacket was flapping in the wind. He stood on the edge of the balcony, his fingers gripping the railing. Adam looked down at the world, watching it pass by as time ticked slowly. His face was white, his teeth clenched. He had been standing at the same spot for quite a while, trying to decide. Should I do it? There was no one else there to help him make his decision. He was alone.
The sun shone down on him. Adam could feel its warmth seep into his shirt, but it was quickly overcame by the cold wind. His fingers were now numb and had a slight blue tinge, but he did not notice. His mind was still on the same question, still trying to decide on an answer. His options were limited: it was either yes or no. There were different consequences with each option - one would change his life forever.
Adam looked at his watch. Time was running out. He had to make a decision soon. He closed his eyes and lifted his head towards the sunlight. It was so warm, so nice. Suddenly, the answer came to him. He had made a decision.
He climbed over the railing slowly and carefully. Adam looked down at the world, the world that he was about to say goodbye to. I wonder if it'll hurt. He leaned forwards as much as he could while still holding onto the railing. A thrill of excitement surged across his whole body. Never had Adam felt so alive. He took a deep breath, closed his eyes... and let go. His jacket flapped in the wind.
This was something that was in me for quite a while. It feels as if I have to write this out in order to be rid of it. I used the name 'Adam' because of the song by Blink182, Adam's Song. If you know that song, you know why.
His jacket was flapping in the wind. He stood on the edge of the balcony, his fingers gripping the railing. Adam looked down at the world, watching it pass by as time ticked slowly. His face was white, his teeth clenched. He had been standing at the same spot for quite a while, trying to decide. Should I do it? There was no one else there to help him make his decision. He was alone.
The sun shone down on him. Adam could feel its warmth seep into his shirt, but it was quickly overcame by the cold wind. His fingers were now numb and had a slight blue tinge, but he did not notice. His mind was still on the same question, still trying to decide on an answer. His options were limited: it was either yes or no. There were different consequences with each option - one would change his life forever.
Adam looked at his watch. Time was running out. He had to make a decision soon. He closed his eyes and lifted his head towards the sunlight. It was so warm, so nice. Suddenly, the answer came to him. He had made a decision.
He climbed over the railing slowly and carefully. Adam looked down at the world, the world that he was about to say goodbye to. I wonder if it'll hurt. He leaned forwards as much as he could while still holding onto the railing. A thrill of excitement surged across his whole body. Never had Adam felt so alive. He took a deep breath, closed his eyes... and let go. His jacket flapped in the wind.
This was something that was in me for quite a while. It feels as if I have to write this out in order to be rid of it. I used the name 'Adam' because of the song by Blink182, Adam's Song. If you know that song, you know why.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:28 AM
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Sticks and Stones
There's always a root to a problem: the difficult part is to identify it.
There's always been a common root to my moody days, but I've never identified it. It's not because I don't know what the root is. It's because I don't want to admit the truth to myself. Self-denial. The most convincing lying technique - even you yourself are fooled.
Yesterday, I finally admitted the truth to myself, and to someone else as well. To say it aloud, to actually hear myself say the words, it turned out to be... a relief. Who knew? Perhaps facing your troubles heads on isn't such a bad thing after all, and ignorance isn't always bliss.
After yesterday, the only thing to do now is to move on. It's not going to be easy, because there are some things you'll never forget, but heck, I gotta try, at least. I won't try to forget the past, because that's almost impossible, and well, the past is part of what makes who I am... to forget the past is to forget, well, me.
What I need to do is to know - no, to believe - that whatever in the past should not drag me down. I will be strong, and get through this. I will not be weak, and I shall prove to others and more importantly, I shall prove to myself that sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me.
There's always been a common root to my moody days, but I've never identified it. It's not because I don't know what the root is. It's because I don't want to admit the truth to myself. Self-denial. The most convincing lying technique - even you yourself are fooled.
Yesterday, I finally admitted the truth to myself, and to someone else as well. To say it aloud, to actually hear myself say the words, it turned out to be... a relief. Who knew? Perhaps facing your troubles heads on isn't such a bad thing after all, and ignorance isn't always bliss.
After yesterday, the only thing to do now is to move on. It's not going to be easy, because there are some things you'll never forget, but heck, I gotta try, at least. I won't try to forget the past, because that's almost impossible, and well, the past is part of what makes who I am... to forget the past is to forget, well, me.
What I need to do is to know - no, to believe - that whatever in the past should not drag me down. I will be strong, and get through this. I will not be weak, and I shall prove to others and more importantly, I shall prove to myself that sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:46 PM
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Monday, July 03, 2006
Eureka! I Have Found The Cure For The Common Cold!
I wasn't serious when I said I was gonna take some time off to get sick. I was kidding! Kidding!
Now, I'm sniffing and sneezing my little nose away... which might have been adorable on a child or a puppy, but not on a teenager. Actually, make that two teenagers, 'cos even my sister has fallen prey to the monster called Acute Nasopharyngitis, otherwise known as the common cold. Hmm, speaking of the common cold... why is there no cure for it if it was, well, so common?
I'm gonna blame it on the house. Yes, it's the house that's causing me to feel all sickish. I might feel a little chilly when I'm out, but at least I don't feel like my immune system is being attacked. Therefore, the cure? Now, don't give me the rubbish about there's no cure for the common cold... because I've found one. Or at least, for my cold anyway. And that is to go out more often! Oh yes. Hehehe. *rub hands in glee*
note: there was absolutely no point to this post. i'm just bored.
Now, I'm sniffing and sneezing my little nose away... which might have been adorable on a child or a puppy, but not on a teenager. Actually, make that two teenagers, 'cos even my sister has fallen prey to the monster called Acute Nasopharyngitis, otherwise known as the common cold. Hmm, speaking of the common cold... why is there no cure for it if it was, well, so common?
I'm gonna blame it on the house. Yes, it's the house that's causing me to feel all sickish. I might feel a little chilly when I'm out, but at least I don't feel like my immune system is being attacked. Therefore, the cure? Now, don't give me the rubbish about there's no cure for the common cold... because I've found one. Or at least, for my cold anyway. And that is to go out more often! Oh yes. Hehehe. *rub hands in glee*
note: there was absolutely no point to this post. i'm just bored.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:36 PM
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
The Higher You Hope, The Harder You Fall
I really don't know why I even bother. I should have learnt my lesson by now, but I never do. I never learn my lessons. Like a moth to a flame, I keep falling into those visible, gaping traps... to be hurt again, and again. It's so, so stupid. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Why do I let myself have such incredibly high expectations, when I know that I will just... fall? I have to stop kidding myself, and stop having such ridiculous high hopes. Not just in this situation, or that situation, or even that situation... but in every situation I find myself in. I have to stop being such a fool, or I shall find that one day, I have spent most of my lifetime spending my time like tonight... Crying to no one, feeling only utter despair.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:11 AM
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