if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I Can't Believe I Actually Love You

Stop blaming me for something that I did not do. Don't give ME a lecture when I'm just sitting there, minding my own business.

I'm just an innocent bystander. I watched helplessly as the fire burned, knowing to get in there would be dangerous. Why put the blame on me while you let the arsonist walk away?

I told you (I even told you repeatedly) that I am not guilty for the things you are accusing me of. So you say, "It's not you, but I want YOU to know." How does that even make any freaking sense? You're just implying that I am guilty of doing those things to you.

So now you're the victim. And I'm responsible for hurting you.

FUCK YOU.

You said that "[some people] may leave you one day, but parents will always be there for you, no matter how badly you treat them".

Don't be such a FUCKING liar!

Firstly... you want to talk about our "dysfunctional family"? Fine. Talk about our family then. That's what you want to talk about, isn't it? Don't freaking drag other people into this.

Secondly... HOW DARE YOU EVEN SAY THAT? Need I even remind you of the countless times you were NOT there for me? I was the one there for you. I looked after you when you were supposed to look after me. All you did was break my heart again and again, and then push me aside like I'm rubbish. When I was down, instead of helping me up, you trampled me deep into the ground.

So don't even lie to me about how you'll always be there for me, no matter what. What a fucking piece of crap. Other people were there for me when you were not. So don't tell me how much they don't matter, when you didn't even give a shit about me. Yeah, they might not be around forever. They might leave. But at the very least, they were there for me once.

i know that i have loved you ... at 5:56 PM
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the.girl ;

    confused about life
    afraid of getting hurt
    let me fly away
    to your heart where i belong

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