if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Birthday Celebrations

In a few days' time, I'll be officially nineteen years old. Such a shame my birthday is always near to exams. :'( What a birthday gift, huh?

However, I did have early birthday celebrations.

The first was on 30th of September. That's mighty early, huh? Adrian and Colin decided to take both Jackie and I out for a nice dinner to celebrate both our birthdays (Jackie's birthday is on Oct 4). We went to Villa d' Vine, a French and Italian restaurant in Herne Bay. The food was not bad, but I think we overdid it with the 3 orders of dessert. We had to pay for the water, which I find really ridiculous. I'm just not the type of person who buys water, you know. Plus, I never could taste the difference with those 'special' waters. Add to the fact that I hate the taste of sparkling water, you can see why I was glad we only had a bottle of still water. There was also a fee for the live music, but since it was good music (and I didn't have to pay, hehe!), it was fine. We then headed to Mission Bay, where we had a chocolate birthday cake with champagne bottle-shaped candles in the car. (Too windy a night to eat outside) We also had a small-ish bottle of chardonnay, which we couldn't finish. How weak are we, huh? After that, I was ready to head home, seeing as I was tired and I've had enough food. But to my surprise, Jackie and the others were up for more! So off we went to Momo's for food and drinks, in dresses and formal shirts and all. It was a really nice night, considering that the guys were cool enough to treat us girls, and to go into the trouble to plan it. Who knew guys could be that nice, huh?

The 2nd celebration was with my family, John, and Gavin at Soul Bar & Bistro at the Viaduct Harbour on the 15th this month. The food was good, although my memory of going there last seemed to tell me the food was much better. John's clam pasta was delicious, though! I was looking forward to dessert, as a few years ago, I had a wonderful apple and rhubard crumble. The apple crumble was so delicious, and although I've tried many other variations at other places, none seem to be able to live up to Soul's. To my utter disappointment, there was no apple crumble! Imagine my sadness.. So I settled for a Chocolate Fantasy - a special coffee containing Peppermint Schnapps, Baileys, hot chocolate and marshmallows. It was yummy, although I would have preferred a tad more Baileys, please. I like my special coffees heavy with alcohol. :P The highlight of the night, though, was neither the food nor the dessert. We picked John up on the way to Soul so that he wouldn't have to drive. The sweet guy gave me a really wonderful present. I knew beforehand what it was, but I still couldn't help feeling surprised when I saw him holding the basket. It was a basket filled with 101 paper cranes and a box of chocolate truffles. Each paper crane had a message within it. Among the paper cranes, one was larger than the others. As I unfolded the paper crane to read its message, I realised with surprise that there was something inside. It was a silver necklace with an apple pendant. It - both the basket of paper cranes and the necklace - was simply the most divine present I have ever received. Thank you, sayang!!

i know that i have loved you ... at 3:48 PM
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Sunday, October 15, 2006

I Can't Believe I Actually Love You

Stop blaming me for something that I did not do. Don't give ME a lecture when I'm just sitting there, minding my own business.

I'm just an innocent bystander. I watched helplessly as the fire burned, knowing to get in there would be dangerous. Why put the blame on me while you let the arsonist walk away?

I told you (I even told you repeatedly) that I am not guilty for the things you are accusing me of. So you say, "It's not you, but I want YOU to know." How does that even make any freaking sense? You're just implying that I am guilty of doing those things to you.

So now you're the victim. And I'm responsible for hurting you.

FUCK YOU.

You said that "[some people] may leave you one day, but parents will always be there for you, no matter how badly you treat them".

Don't be such a FUCKING liar!

Firstly... you want to talk about our "dysfunctional family"? Fine. Talk about our family then. That's what you want to talk about, isn't it? Don't freaking drag other people into this.

Secondly... HOW DARE YOU EVEN SAY THAT? Need I even remind you of the countless times you were NOT there for me? I was the one there for you. I looked after you when you were supposed to look after me. All you did was break my heart again and again, and then push me aside like I'm rubbish. When I was down, instead of helping me up, you trampled me deep into the ground.

So don't even lie to me about how you'll always be there for me, no matter what. What a fucking piece of crap. Other people were there for me when you were not. So don't tell me how much they don't matter, when you didn't even give a shit about me. Yeah, they might not be around forever. They might leave. But at the very least, they were there for me once.

i know that i have loved you ... at 5:56 PM
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Because I'm That Stupid

I did that on purpose, but you didn't even notice.

I know you well enough to predict your reaction. I knew what was coming. Heck, I even freakin' anticipated it. I was hoping it would trigger something else. Now that I have time to think about it, that was a pretty foolish thing to say, planned or otherwise.

But I'll still do it in the future anyway. It's a sure-fire, 100% guaranteed way to get your attention.

Sigh. What to do? I damn stupid wan mah.

I still wish you know me as well as I know you.

i know that i have loved you ... at 11:57 PM
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the.girl ;

    confused about life
    afraid of getting hurt
    let me fly away
    to your heart where i belong

past.memories;

  • June 2007
  • May 2007
  • February 2007
  • January 2007
  • December 2006
  • November 2006
  • October 2006
  • September 2006
  • August 2006
  • July 2006
  • June 2006
  • May 2006
  • April 2006
  • March 2006
  • February 2006
  • January 2006
  • December 2005
  • November 2005
  • October 2005
  • September 2005
  • August 2005

the.messages;