if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Too Spot-On

I am addicted to online tests. Meaningless ones, silly ones, weird ones, useful ones.. I love them all. But I especially love Tickle, because it's not as generic and baseless and stupid as others. And also, they're usually quite spot-on.

I did a test on Tickle today, and when I saw the test result, I froze for a second. The result was so spot-on, so true... it just hit a nerve. It was just a bit too accurate for my liking.

I'm the type of person who knows what problems she has and won't deny having problems... but would not want to do anything about it. I need help, I know. See there? I just admitted that I need help, but I would not actually do anything.

Looking at the result on the computer screen made me feel cold down to my stomach. It feels like even something mechanical and completely emotionless like an online test can strip me down to my core and analyse me, picking and prodding at me like I'm some sort of experiment. I feel sick. And helpless.

And yet I'm addicted to these tests. You don't have to tell me I have a problem. I know.

i know that i have loved you ... at 12:48 AM
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the.girl ;

    confused about life
    afraid of getting hurt
    let me fly away
    to your heart where i belong

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