if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

I Cut Deep, Sometimes

I realise that I can be too straightforward sometimes. I'm brutal in trying too hard to be witty. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you. I know I say that a lot, but I am genuinely sorry.

I wasn't trying to be mean. I was just trying to be... me.

A friend told me that I have "a degree of wit that can cut". I didn't know that. I don't mean to hurt people. Well, most of the time anyway. I admit, sometimes I want to hurt people, and so I cut them. And even then, it's because they piss me off by being unreasonable. But most of the time, I'm just being me.

I'll try to be more cautious. But that also means I'll have to hide the real me. I don't like that. I'm already secretive enough as it is. I thought I could be me without being afraid. Was I wrong?

I cut, sometimes. But sometimes, you, too, cut me. We bleed and bleed till our veins are dry... and still, we refuse to accept each other the way we are. Here I am, asking you to accept me the way I am. And yet, I ask you to change. We cut each other, and we are drained and tired... but we live. I guess you can't please everyone, including yourself.

i know that i have loved you ... at 8:46 PM
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the.girl ;

    confused about life
    afraid of getting hurt
    let me fly away
    to your heart where i belong

past.memories;

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