if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Monday, February 13, 2006

Please Don't Get The Wrong Idea

Something happened to me today.. It may be a little thing, but it feels kinda major to me. I... kena makan tofu. Doesn't make sense? Erm, think in Mandarin? Don't know Mandarin? Ask Shing Yee, she knows what happened (that thing I told you online).

Okay... basically, someone got too close to me for comfort. I need personal space, ok?

I mean, didn't you see I was trying to move away from you? Under false pretences (coaching me in playing pool woh, kononnya), you tried to get me close to you. Great, congrats! You did it! But right now, I'm squirming, and I don't know how to face you the next time we meet. I should've slapped you, but I didn't want to make a scene. You are such an idiot!

Don't try to force me to like you, because even I don't know what I want... so what makes you think you know?

I should be mad at you, except that you're usually a nice guy, and I worry I'm overreacting.

I feel odd now. I don't feel like seeing you. Please don't get the wrong idea. And please don't simply meraba-raba, okay? I feel very geli now.

I don't want to hate you, you know. But if you keep insisting and pushing me, I will hate you. Or at the least, avoid you. I want to be friends, is that so hard?

Okay, so I don't know how I feel towards you, exactly. So yes... the feeling might change in the future. But at the moment, I really don't think of you that way. Not yet anyway. So give me some time, okay? Let me try and figure this out by myself.

Push me, and I will push you away.

i know that i have loved you ... at 12:24 AM
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the.girl ;

    confused about life
    afraid of getting hurt
    let me fly away
    to your heart where i belong

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