Monday, February 13, 2006
I'm Gonna Cleanse Myself Off You
I have an unhealthy obsession with you these days. The only time you do not plague my thoughts is when there is loud noise, and during sleep. Thank goodness I don't dream of you. At least, in the sanctuary of my dreamland, I am safe.
This weekend, I'm gonna go off on a 3-day trip, and boy, I'm glad you're not going. I'm gonna take that time to have fun, and cleanse my thoughts. When I return, semester 1 will start, and hopefully, this hoo-hah will end. Direct your attention somewhere else, and leave me at peace. The others, they too, should leave me alone. Are you so cowardly, that you will not tell me yourself, but make our friends attack me? You... you infuriate me!
They say that I haven't seen the real you, but I think I might have.. and I don't like it one bit. Yes, sure, people have different facets to them.. Different personalities may emerge from one same person, but I sure don't like what I'm seeing emerging from you.
I don't want to see you for... at least a week, maybe? But your birthday is soon, and I'd feel bad for neglecting you on that one special day. But then, you don't seem to have any plans anyway, so this is the best, perhaps?
I haven't even bought your present. I thought of making something for you, at first, but now I rather spend money than waste my effort on you.
I need to spend some time without you, because I don't like this bout of depression that I'm in. I want - no, I need - to cleanse myself off you. I need you out of my mind. I need a vacation. So this weekend, I leave with some friends. I'm gonna be happy, I'm gonna have fun.. for at least 3 days. That's all I ask for. Can I just have 3 days of peace?
And after that, you can plague me all you want. All I ask for is 3 days.
This weekend, I'm gonna go off on a 3-day trip, and boy, I'm glad you're not going. I'm gonna take that time to have fun, and cleanse my thoughts. When I return, semester 1 will start, and hopefully, this hoo-hah will end. Direct your attention somewhere else, and leave me at peace. The others, they too, should leave me alone. Are you so cowardly, that you will not tell me yourself, but make our friends attack me? You... you infuriate me!
They say that I haven't seen the real you, but I think I might have.. and I don't like it one bit. Yes, sure, people have different facets to them.. Different personalities may emerge from one same person, but I sure don't like what I'm seeing emerging from you.
I don't want to see you for... at least a week, maybe? But your birthday is soon, and I'd feel bad for neglecting you on that one special day. But then, you don't seem to have any plans anyway, so this is the best, perhaps?
I haven't even bought your present. I thought of making something for you, at first, but now I rather spend money than waste my effort on you.
I need to spend some time without you, because I don't like this bout of depression that I'm in. I want - no, I need - to cleanse myself off you. I need you out of my mind. I need a vacation. So this weekend, I leave with some friends. I'm gonna be happy, I'm gonna have fun.. for at least 3 days. That's all I ask for. Can I just have 3 days of peace?
And after that, you can plague me all you want. All I ask for is 3 days.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:39 PM
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