Monday, January 23, 2006
Damn It! Argh...!
I'm a messy person. I'll admit that. That clutter on my desk since last year? Still there. I've got books, stationery, papers and miscellaneous stuff strewn across everywhere in my room, and every time I need something, there's always a desperate search deep into the paper jungle that is my room. Usually I find the thing I'm looking for, 'cos I always have a feeling as to where I left that thing... i.e. somewhere around the lower shelves of my bookshelf, near the cds.. or whatever. The point is, the object gets found. But today... I failed.
I've been posting some stories on Fiction Alley since 2003. However, I hardly update, as I always take months just to write a chapter. At first, I update every 3 months or so.. but in mid-2004, I stopped. Went on a hiatus. Huge writer's block. Plus, I started my first year in uni in 2005. I was busy adapting to university life. Then, having received some comments asking about the stories, I wrote a few chapters during mid-2005. I wanted to continue, but I didn't. Today, I decided to continue writing for Fiction Alley again. However, there was a big problem. You see, I had a draft for one of my stories (I have 3 ongoing - crazy, eh?) done during late 2003. But I never did anything with it, as I decided that part of the story was way too soon to be published (online). So I kept it away. Now, I decided... it's time.
So I searched for it yesterday. But guess what? I couldn't find it! I thought I'd give it a rest, and try again later. Still nothing. I was beginning to worry. Surely I didn't throw it away, did I? I searched high and low today. Still nothing. Nada.
Oh man! I hope it's not gone forever. I had a plan on it... for my story's plot. With that gone.. I simply can't continue my story. I have a very bad memory, as you guys know, and I forget things very easily, even ideas for story plots. So when I come up with an idea, I have to jot it down. Otherwise, it's gone. Poof! Just like that. I can't remember what my plan for the plot even was! At all!
Argh! Feel like tearing my hair out. Damn damn damn damn damn damn damn!!
I. Need. That. Draft!
I've been posting some stories on Fiction Alley since 2003. However, I hardly update, as I always take months just to write a chapter. At first, I update every 3 months or so.. but in mid-2004, I stopped. Went on a hiatus. Huge writer's block. Plus, I started my first year in uni in 2005. I was busy adapting to university life. Then, having received some comments asking about the stories, I wrote a few chapters during mid-2005. I wanted to continue, but I didn't. Today, I decided to continue writing for Fiction Alley again. However, there was a big problem. You see, I had a draft for one of my stories (I have 3 ongoing - crazy, eh?) done during late 2003. But I never did anything with it, as I decided that part of the story was way too soon to be published (online). So I kept it away. Now, I decided... it's time.
So I searched for it yesterday. But guess what? I couldn't find it! I thought I'd give it a rest, and try again later. Still nothing. I was beginning to worry. Surely I didn't throw it away, did I? I searched high and low today. Still nothing. Nada.
Oh man! I hope it's not gone forever. I had a plan on it... for my story's plot. With that gone.. I simply can't continue my story. I have a very bad memory, as you guys know, and I forget things very easily, even ideas for story plots. So when I come up with an idea, I have to jot it down. Otherwise, it's gone. Poof! Just like that. I can't remember what my plan for the plot even was! At all!
Argh! Feel like tearing my hair out. Damn damn damn damn damn damn damn!!
I. Need. That. Draft!
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:58 AM
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