Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Chinese New Year Was...
Uneventful, and oddly enough, slightly depressing.
On CNY's eve, my family and I went for a vegetarian banquet dinner with some friends. It was that night I found out my sister's going out with a guy - someone whom I didn't quite like, but had to accept for my sis's sake. I couldn't quite pinpoint what exactly I didn't like about him. Sometimes, you just dislike someone for no reason, you know? I wondered how long she's been together with him, but I didn't ask my sis. For some reason, I don't really want to know. Funnily enough, my parents knew that they were going out earlier than I did, and I had to ask my sis to confirm. I can't believe I'm that blur. Why am I that clueless when it comes to relationships? I never saw it coming. I honestly thought they were just friends! Stupid.
On CNY's day, I went out for a picnic dinner with Joey and gang at Cornwall Park. While sitting in the car with Simon, and while waiting for pizza with Joey, they grilled me about my story (Simon's words, not mine). Is there any guy you like? Anyone in our group? What about *****? What about ****? So annoying. Okay, I know you guys are a couple, but that doesn't mean everyone else has to date. It's not that important... at least not for me. Sure, I get jealous sometimes, looking at couples. But that's only because I feel out-of-place, not because I actually want a relationship. Getting into a relationship is definitely not a priority on my list. So stop grilling me! It's annoying, and rather depressing.
CNY just isn't fun without your favourite relatives around. I miss my grandma's cooking, my wonderful cousins, and generally, the CNY atmosphere in Malaysia. In fact, CNY this year was rather depressing. My mom and her friends tried to replicate the CNY atmosphere by playing CNY songs. However, I felt really depressed listening to it.. it felt too fake, too forced. I never felt so alone in the company of so many. I felt so antisocial. I didn't even want to go out. All I want to do is stay at home, and wallow in my misery.
I'm so glad CNY is over. I don't think I can take the fake "Happy Chinese New Year!"s, nor the ever-so-boring talks about what people did during CNY. Leave me alone for just a while. I'll recover soon.
On CNY's eve, my family and I went for a vegetarian banquet dinner with some friends. It was that night I found out my sister's going out with a guy - someone whom I didn't quite like, but had to accept for my sis's sake. I couldn't quite pinpoint what exactly I didn't like about him. Sometimes, you just dislike someone for no reason, you know? I wondered how long she's been together with him, but I didn't ask my sis. For some reason, I don't really want to know. Funnily enough, my parents knew that they were going out earlier than I did, and I had to ask my sis to confirm. I can't believe I'm that blur. Why am I that clueless when it comes to relationships? I never saw it coming. I honestly thought they were just friends! Stupid.
On CNY's day, I went out for a picnic dinner with Joey and gang at Cornwall Park. While sitting in the car with Simon, and while waiting for pizza with Joey, they grilled me about my story (Simon's words, not mine). Is there any guy you like? Anyone in our group? What about *****? What about ****? So annoying. Okay, I know you guys are a couple, but that doesn't mean everyone else has to date. It's not that important... at least not for me. Sure, I get jealous sometimes, looking at couples. But that's only because I feel out-of-place, not because I actually want a relationship. Getting into a relationship is definitely not a priority on my list. So stop grilling me! It's annoying, and rather depressing.
CNY just isn't fun without your favourite relatives around. I miss my grandma's cooking, my wonderful cousins, and generally, the CNY atmosphere in Malaysia. In fact, CNY this year was rather depressing. My mom and her friends tried to replicate the CNY atmosphere by playing CNY songs. However, I felt really depressed listening to it.. it felt too fake, too forced. I never felt so alone in the company of so many. I felt so antisocial. I didn't even want to go out. All I want to do is stay at home, and wallow in my misery.
I'm so glad CNY is over. I don't think I can take the fake "Happy Chinese New Year!"s, nor the ever-so-boring talks about what people did during CNY. Leave me alone for just a while. I'll recover soon.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:37 PM
fate crumbled all around 5 comments
fate crumbled all around 5 comments