Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Pictures... Will Not Be Posted Here (Mostly)
I've decided that pictures will mostly be posted up on my Livejournal account. Blogger, as much as I like using it, just lacks in the "posting up pictures" department. So much easier to use Livejournal.
So, this is my Livejournal: Life's Little Joys. Click for pictures!
So, this is my Livejournal: Life's Little Joys. Click for pictures!
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:07 AM
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
At A Loss
My exams are finally over. After 2 weeks of studying to the verge of breaking down, and of going to uni to study every day, I can finally relax.
Except... I don't know what to do.
For some reason, I feel like I'm at a loss. I feel so sick and so bored of being at home, of doing nothing productive. It's almost like I lost this sense of purpose, of which was previously filled while studying for exams. Back then, I had an aim. I had to study hard to do as good as I can in my exams. I couldn't slack off, I couldn't afford to. There was this... 'something' pushing me during the past 2 weeks. It was a burning desire to do well; to be able to get grades good enough to qualify for postgrad studies; to actually not feel like I'm not fulfilling my full potential for once.
But now... Now I feel nothing. It's almost like I'm empty inside.
It's not that I don't have anything to do. I have to study for my learner's test, which, unfortunately, I have not done. I have to reorganise my degree plan, seeing as how I've decided to drop English off as my major, and to replace it with Psychology instead. I have to organise the trip to Tongariro, but ridiculously enough, I don't even know where the place is! I want to read those books I bought, finish off those stories I started writing.. But for some reason, I can't seem to bring myself to do any of the above. I don't even quite look forward to the trip to the States anymore.
Maybe it's just the exam 'blues', if you will. Add to the fact that I'm kinda sick.. It kinda makes sense, I guess. I just need to kick myself out of this funk.
Except... I don't know what to do.
For some reason, I feel like I'm at a loss. I feel so sick and so bored of being at home, of doing nothing productive. It's almost like I lost this sense of purpose, of which was previously filled while studying for exams. Back then, I had an aim. I had to study hard to do as good as I can in my exams. I couldn't slack off, I couldn't afford to. There was this... 'something' pushing me during the past 2 weeks. It was a burning desire to do well; to be able to get grades good enough to qualify for postgrad studies; to actually not feel like I'm not fulfilling my full potential for once.
But now... Now I feel nothing. It's almost like I'm empty inside.
It's not that I don't have anything to do. I have to study for my learner's test, which, unfortunately, I have not done. I have to reorganise my degree plan, seeing as how I've decided to drop English off as my major, and to replace it with Psychology instead. I have to organise the trip to Tongariro, but ridiculously enough, I don't even know where the place is! I want to read those books I bought, finish off those stories I started writing.. But for some reason, I can't seem to bring myself to do any of the above. I don't even quite look forward to the trip to the States anymore.
Maybe it's just the exam 'blues', if you will. Add to the fact that I'm kinda sick.. It kinda makes sense, I guess. I just need to kick myself out of this funk.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:28 PM
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